“And some of it, if we’re being fully honest, is that the seeing is overwhelming. The need is so large, and we are so small, and looking directly at all of it feels like standing at the edge of something with no bottom.”
Thank you for naming what I’m feeling a lot of lately. Then add to that feeling the guilt of being in a church that told us we had the power to change the world if only we had enough faith. I know Jesus can handle my burdens when I am weary. Faith is just such a wrestling match at times.
That combination you're describing—the overwhelming scale of the need, plus the guilt of having been told your faith should be enough to fix it—is a particularly heavy load to carry. You're not failing at faith. You're being honest about its limits, which is actually what faith looks like when it's real rather than performed. Jacob walked away from his wrestling match with a limp and a blessing. Both at the same time. That feels about right. Our love to you and Cliff!
“And some of it, if we’re being fully honest, is that the seeing is overwhelming. The need is so large, and we are so small, and looking directly at all of it feels like standing at the edge of something with no bottom.”
Thank you for naming what I’m feeling a lot of lately. Then add to that feeling the guilt of being in a church that told us we had the power to change the world if only we had enough faith. I know Jesus can handle my burdens when I am weary. Faith is just such a wrestling match at times.
That combination you're describing—the overwhelming scale of the need, plus the guilt of having been told your faith should be enough to fix it—is a particularly heavy load to carry. You're not failing at faith. You're being honest about its limits, which is actually what faith looks like when it's real rather than performed. Jacob walked away from his wrestling match with a limp and a blessing. Both at the same time. That feels about right. Our love to you and Cliff!
I’m so encouraged by your reply brother.
Love to you & Kellie 💞💞
so convicting! I pray I am willing to see.
A most honest and courageous prayer! Seeing is where it always starts.